Just when you think you know it all

I was thinking about people I knew back in the mid-90s who were coding HTML and working on Macs and teaching themselves how to build websites. Those people all have pretty cool careers.

I had a hard time with basic math. Still do.

Still, I'm kicking myself that I didn't learn more, dive in...become more self-actualized. Because now, at nearly 35, I'm struggling. Sure, I have a decent job that pays pretty well and asks little of me. But I'm an entrepreneur on the inside, and I don't have any skills to make my ideas bloom. Nor, it seems, do I have the drive or will power or whatever to learn.

Hm, that's tricky. You see, I know I can make big things happen. I have big ideas all the time. But I get bored, hate the follow through, and I'm languishing trying to lose a bunch of weight, clean up my life, and build a decent relationship with the dude I've been living with for nearly six years. So there's that. I'm in deep. Ill-prepared and grumpy.

I have a lot of work to do.